You were my addiction.
I was a self-sacrificing victim
of your much-loved self-afflictions.
Your obsession with perfection,
the need to control every situation,
moving people around like pawns,
keeping track so your lies did not
beat you home before the dawn.
In the days before I got sober,
went cold turkey from your love,
you were all I would consider,
my substitute goddess from above.
Now there is only day to day,
thinking up ways not to think
about the joy, the loving play
that could take you to the brink.
Now you are my affliction,
and I am a self-hating victim
of my much-missed love addiction.
Francisco G. Rodriquez, 2012